When I look back in my blog postings, I know there is no literature in my language. I don't have education to write well in english, but I believe, I am just able to communicate what comes to my mind through limited english language knowledge I have. I couldn't continue studies beyond 7th standard. In this post I am trying to express a mother's feelings from my own experience.
Few days back I spoke to my grand daughter who is staying in America with her husband and two little boys. She is fully involved with the boys. I heard my great grand children's voice through computer, and my grand daughter is trying to control them. My mind filled with joy. I found a mother's love in her passionate voice. Then my mind got into a thinking mood, analyzing a mother's mind. In her childhood she gets love from parents. After marriage it is from husband and parents in law. When she realizes that a little one is growing in her womb, she forgets everything else. She begins to dream about her child, along with her husband. It starts right from searching a KG school to their future profession. She gets no time for anything else and mind fully occupies with the child. thats how the attachment between the mother and child starts.
From then, the mother's mind (I think, there is nothing in the world to beat it in size) enjoys the motherhood. When the child comes out, feeding and caring the child gives her immense satisfaction. She understands each and every need of the child from its little actions and tantrums. With love, advise, cajoling, and at times beging stern (saamam, daanam, bhedam, and dandam), she leads the children to right path, as she feels it.
Shae cares for their health, education, and whatever is possible within her reach. She understands their habbits and way of thinking very well. When they grow and become youth, they start thinking about their own family. Parents are ready to assist them in selecting a life partner.
Finally her family tree begins to sprout. Now the children have their own family and their parents impatiently wait for grand child. The size of mother's mind grows to think about grand children also. Her prayer gets extended as the members in her family tree grows.
After her children's separation her responsibility starts decreasing. But her mind is anxious about each and every menmber of her family tree. She feels happiness in their happiness, and each and every problems in their life worries her. She starts feeling lucky when all the children in her family tree expresses their love towards her. When her grand children also make their own family, her mind grows again.... she becomes great grand mother... and their responsibilities keeps decreasing... her health keeps deteriorating... Not many things to do other than pray for everyone who loves her... Till last breath, she will pray for all her children, grand children and great grand children.
Whichever child needs help, her mind always goes with that child. All children of a mother may not be doing well physically and financially. Sometimes her mind will cry more and pray more for the suffering child. A mother's love is like water. It flows to lower level. It is like a wheel in our life. When it rotates, the lower part comes to top and the top goes to bottom. That is the way of life and mother's mind follows.